THE WIND IS HOWLING WITH RAGE

The wind is howling with rage
Not a good sign
Something bad about to happen
I can feel it
I know it

IF THAT DAY I KNEW WHAT I KNOW TODAY !

If 6 years ago I knew what I know today
I wouldn't have done that
I wouldn't have been that stupid
To think it was the way
The solution
To feel less bad
To ease the pain
That day I will always regret
That day caused my end, my death
That day is now everyday
There's nothing to do
Nobody to talk to
Nobody to listen
Nobody to talk to me
Just me and it
A growing nightmare
Torture everyday
I'm not worthy
I'll never make it
Nothing but waiting for the ultimate release

WHAT I AM

What I am is everything you can't understand
What I do is everything you could never think of
What I don't say is everything you wouldn't want to hear
What I fake is a happiness you think is real
What I hide is everything I wish wasn't real or didn't happen
What I pretend is a nightmare being a dream
What I regret is that what's done is done, can't be undone, and I can't be 14 again to take another way

ASHAMED OF BEING ME

Ashamed of everything
Of who, what, I am
What I do
Hiding behind a mask
Staying alone in the dark

A LOST CAUSE YOU WONT MISS

A lost cause you can't help
A lost cause you can't understand
A lost cause you can't save
A lost cause you can't avoid the grave
A lost cause you won't miss !

I SEE THEM BUT DO THEY SEE ME ?

All those things moving around me
I wonder if they will ever stop
Scarier everyday
I see them
But do they see me ?

BLACK SHADOWS ALL AROUND ME

Black shadows all around me
It's very scary
Will they try to reach me
Grab me to take me with them
Or just scare me
Will they go away if I close my eyes ?

MIDNIGHT LOVER

Your lips find mine in the night
It's dark but with you I never feel lost
You show me everything is bright

I CLOSE MY EYES SO I CAN BE WITH YOU

I close my eyes so I can be with you
Being in your arms as you hold me
Telling me how much you love me
As I kiss you

ALWAYS ON YOUR OWN WHEN YOU FALL

You're always on your own
When you fall
People are far away
Why would they care anyway ?!