NOT GONNA TALK TO U DEAR FRIENDS FOR A WHILE!

I'm not gonna talk to anyone for a while
Maybe never again
Even those I care about
And care about me
Don't have time for me
You know nothing
And for sure now you never will
I'm nothing but a burden anyway
I wonder why I bother
They'll never love me for me
But just for that false image they have of me
They're full of broken promisses
Words they don't mean
Lies they tell me to make me feel alright
Like when I tell you I'm fine

WHY DO I BOTHER WRITING...

Why do I bother writing stories
That nobody will read
Or poetry that makes no sense
It's not talent like a few said
Without even meaning it
It's just stupid words on a paper
You can easily get lost in my writing
Wondering what's real
What did I make up ?
Is it me or someone else ?
Am I the person I talk about ?
Or am I just the writer ?
Why do I write ?
Does it change something in some way ?
Of course not
It just makes me focus on all that crap even more
It's like the less you try to think about something
The more you actually think of it
Nothing will ever change
That torture will never leave

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HIDING BEHIND A TREE

Hiding behind a tree
You won't see me
It's a safe place
Far from your gaze

THIS IS MY ONLY WISH

This is my only wish
I don't wanna be here anymore
Why can't you hear me
And let me die ?!

I WISH I WAS NEVER BORN

I wish I was never born
I wouldn't have known any of this shit
And it wouldn't make such a difference anyway
Nobody cares
Nobody loves me
Unless they want something from me

SAME THING EVERYDAY

Feeling so sad I want to cry
Red tears have to fall once again
Everything will be left behind
For only a few minutes of relief
I have no choice anyway
Same thing everyday

I WONDER WHY I EVEN BOTHER

I wonder why I even bother
Trying to be a 'good girl'
Doing all her damn work
When all she can do is yell and complain
She's never satisfied anyway
I'm good at nothing
I'm fed up with all of that
I can't take this anymore !

SITTING ALONE

Sitting alone
Mind wandering
What is your goal
Everyday thinking

U WONT MISS ME I KNOW I'M RIGHT

I wanna die
I mean nothing in this fucking life
So hurt deep inside
Invisible to everyone
I want to kill myself tonight
You won't miss me I know I'm right

THOSE THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD

I wish those thoughts in my head
Would just go away
I want an empty mind
Think or worry about nothing
Not being me but someone different, someone new

YOU SAID YOU WOULDN'T...

You said you wouldn't lie to me... you did
You said you wouldn't hurt me... you did
You said you wouldn't make me cry... you did
You said you wouldn't leave me... you did
You said you wouldn't break my heart... you did

All those things you said you'd never do... you fucking lied !