DEEP INSIDE

Deep inside I find
The strength to lie

Deep inside I fight
These torturing feelings

Deep inside I hide
Hoping nobody will find

Deep inside I cry
Faking you a smile

Deep inside I scream
Wanting not to feel

Deep inside I die
Trying one more time

Deep inside I hope
That you will save me

And outside I bleed
Searching for an escape !

I WISH I WASN'T ME

I wish I wasn’t me
So maybe I could be happy
Enjoying each second of my life

I wish I wasn’t me
So I could cry
Trying to release the pressure that way

I wish I wasn’t me
So I wouldn’t need ‘that’ everyday
Not killing myself a bit more everyday

I wish I wasn’t me
So I wouldn’t have to hide
And even less to lie

I wish I wasn’t me
So I could smile
Without having to fake

I wish I wasn’t me
So I wouldn’t feel the way I feel
Those painful feelings everyday

I wish I wasn’t me
So I wouldn’t suffer that way
In silence everyday

I wish I wasn’t me
So I wouldn’t have scars
I’d have to hide

I wish I wasn’t me
So I wouldn’t be addicted
To something that’s really bad

I wish I wasn’t me
So I wouldn’t fear
Being discovered and sent away

I wish I wasn’t me
So I could try to live
Not to die !