LOVING YOU SO MUCH HURTS ! AND YOU DONT KNOW !

You say you love me so much
And yet you want to go far from me
Everyday the situation hurts me more
But I try hard not to show you
And let you decide what makes you happy
Even if it means I have to cry more tears
Maybe I'm just selfish for wanting to keep you near me
For loving you so much
When the happy thought I have everyday
Is thinking about the next time I'll be in your arms
Hoping you think about the same thing
And you know my love is real
I've given you what was the most important to me
Including my heart
Beating for no one else but you
I'm so hurt and I don't tell you
My tears won't stop
There's never enough
Then you think I'm mad and you just go away or ignore me
And it hurts me even more when I'm already so sad !
Now I'm going to bed with red eyes
Knowing that I won't have a message from you when I get up
Knowing that you don't know any of this
Knowing that I will be sad again
Wondering what you really feel

IT'S YOU I NEED

I don't want to bleed
Right now it's you I need
But like always you're not there
I guess you don't care

I THOUGHT YOU WERE DIFFERENT

We used to talk for hours everyday
You always said we could share everything about our lives
You would always be there and make me feel better
It felt good to finally have someone
It's different now you don't care
And it hurs me a lot
But again you won't know
And I thought you were different !

WHEN EVEN A BEST FRIEND, A BROTHER, STOP TO CARE

I try to talk to you
But you don't care
I've always considered you a best friend, a big brother
But now it's like you're not there for me anymore
I don't know what I did
But this is how it is
Time for others
But not for me
It's been hurting me for months
But what can I do anyway ?
If you don't want me in your life I won't stay
Just be honest and tell me

DYING ON HER OWN

Smiling in public
Bleeding when alone
Dying on her own