DENYING

Living in a lie
That everything’s fine
Everything I deny
Everyday I fake, hide
And sometimes lie
The truth you don’t seem to find
Don’t look me right in the eye
Otherwise I couldn't lie
To be free I need to die !

...NOBODY...

Nobody to care
Nobody to share
Nobody to listen
Nobody to enlighten
Nobody to advice
Nobody to be nice
Nobody to take my pain away
Nobody to help me find another way
Nobody to take it from my hand
Nobody to understand

I FELL, FALL AND AM STILL FALLING

At first I thought I had the control
Now I don’t have it anymore
I thought I had found a way to feel less bad
This addiction took all of me
I’m not who I used to be
Mind and body have been destroyed
I’m just a dying slave
Everyday harder I fall
All alone I fell and am still falling !

DROWNING

Drowning in the ocean
Nothing but water all around
Scared, I close my eyes not to feel
That I can’t breathe

Drowning in this addiction
I fell deep into self-destruction
Nothing I could do
Sometimes I blame you

Drowning in my tears
They’re cold filled with fear
Fear of losing people I love
Fear of being discovered and sent away

Drowning in eternal pain
Nothing else I could do to erase
It’s just me and the blade
Dying in this shitty life I made

Drowning in my blood
So much I’ve lost
This ocean that once was blue
Has now been red for years

SHITTY DAY

THIS IS A HELL OF A SHITTY DAY
NODOBY CARES ANYWAY
LIKE ALWAYS LET ME TAKE THE PAIN MY OWN WAY

SCARED OF THE UNKNOWN

Alone in the dark
Searching for the light
Secretly hoping for someone to help
Saving me from the nothing I’ve become

I need someone to set me free
Empty my mind
Help me not to think about it
To be free from that addiction

Take them from my hands
Try to understand
Don’t judge me
And never say I’m sick nor crazy

Show me another way
Talk to me and reassure me
Always be there especially each time I’m down
Never give up on me !

MY ADDICTION

This addiction made me
Hate myself even more
It totally destroyed me
Both my mind and body
Now I’m a mess
I’m nothing
Just a slave
Barely alive
Reaching death slowly
A bit more everyday
Until it’s so bad
That I have to end it all
Not just a try
The very last time
Will be the good one !

WHEN I LOOK INTO YOUR EYES

When I look into your eyes
I find everything I’ve always been looking for

When I look into your eyes
I can smile

When I look into your eyes
I can feel alive

When I look into your eyes
I see why I get up every morning

When I look into your eyes
I feel happiness filling my heart

When I look into your eyes
I want to feel safe in your arms

When I look into your eyes
I want to feel the heat of your lips over mine

When I look into your eyes
I wish I could feel your hand on my skin

When I look into your eyes
I know you’re the one I want to be with

When I look into your eyes
I know you’re my reason to live