BLINDED BY A NEW TEAR

Blinded by a new tear
I wish you were near
You would take my hand
And try to understand

LOST

Please show me another way
Before it's too late
I'm down on my knees
Begging for release

NIGHT

Here in my bed
Like always thinking, worrying
Trying to survive those obsessing thoughts
As well as those images
Those things that hurt me so bad
The reason I can't close my eyes
And feel so bad deep inside
As the only thing I can think of
Is the thing I wish I didn't think of
What will do me good for a while
Before I feel even worse afterwards
My addiction
My death

EVERYDAY & EVERYNIGHT

Everyday and everynight
Every second of my life
Calling me
I wish I was deaf
So I wouldn't hear it
So I wouldn't have to do this

TO HELL WITH THEIR BLOODY FOOD

They forced me to eat their bloody pie
I feel so heavy inside now
I hate that feeling
I don't want to be fat
I hate the image the mirror shows me already
I can't wait to be home
To throw it up
And feel better

YOUR LIES

You wanted to make me feel better
You made me feel even worse
You wanted to help me be more confident
You took the little confidence I had
You wanted to show me love
You taught me how to hate
You wanted to give me a better life
You killed it

WE ARE BLIND

We all live in denial
Refusing to see what's wrong
We all live in lies
Refusing others hands
We all live in fear
Refusing to try to face what scares us
We all live in the dark
Refusing to open up our eyes

HAPPINESS IN SADNESS

Maybe I'm 'happy' when I'm sad
Or have a reason to get mad
So I have an excuse for my behavior which is bad

IF I WASNT ME

I close my eyes and imagine
How life would be
If I wasn't me