I DON’T WANT YOU TO CRY

I don’t want you to cry
I want to see you smile
And if it happens that I die
I want you to smile
Looking at the sky

I LIE TO YOU EVERYDAY

I lie to you everyday
I’m sorry but it’s the only way
All those things I hide
Must stay deep inside

FINALLY ALONE, ON MY OWN

They’re finally leaving me alone
2 weeks to live my own way
I couldn’t wait to be on my own
It’s about to happen for 2 weeks today

I hate them for sending spies
People to check on me almost everyday
Trying to not let me live my own way
Even though they know nothing but my lies

For 14 days I won’t have to lie
Nor will I have to hide
Free to do anything I want anytime
I’m totally free to die

I’M GIVING UP THIS TIME

I’m giving up this time
I can't win this fight
Everything’s just become too hard
I’m tired of having to lie and hide
Or fake a smile
Telling you that everything’s alright
I don’t care anymore what happens tonight
If I’m lucky I’ll die

A TEAR DROP IN THE OCEAN

A tear drop in the ocean
Nowhere to be found
Hiding to die
Please switch off the light
This pain is real
Those secret wounds will never heal
A lost cause I became
Soon I’ll hit the grave

YOU HOLD MY HAND

You hold my hand
Whisper I love you in my ear
Taking me to another land
Where I would have nothing to fear

IT’S BEEN NOW 6 YEARS

It’s been now 6 years
Since I met and lost you
The way you made my heart beat
I could never forget
The way you looked at me and made me smile
For once in my life
Even though you were much older
It didn’t matter to me
I didn’t care
You were my everything
I loved you like never before
And then I was forced to leave
This place I considered heaven
Since then I’ve been broken
Feeling like I could never love again
Now I just wonder
If you would even remember

LAST WEEK

A horrible week
I had never been that bad in my entire life
Or maybe
But I just can’t remember
I did so many things I wish I didn’t do
Just to bring me down even more
Doing worse everyday
I never thought I’d get over it alive
Now that I think of it I’m sad
Those few days just brought me down
Making me fall harder than ever
Making me give up on myself
Tired of that fight
Why should I even try
When it hurts even more deep inside
If I can just give in
And feel less bad for a moment
It just doesn’t make sense
Why try to stop doing something you know you can’t stop
As you always need it… more
Whatever, I don’t care anymore
I just give up
I don’t care, I’m fine