TO NUMB THE PAIN

All those red lines
Tell you where the blade's been
Behind every scar
Hides a secret pain, secret rage
Some are white, new ones are red
Are they even as big as the pain in my head ?
So many secrets hiding beneath my skin
What words can't describe
The blade my friend
And secret shame

HOLDING IT ALL INSIDE

You don't know what I'm feeling
As I hold it all inside
You think I'm happily daydreaming
When I really wish to die
You don't know what I'm doing
When I go to the bathroom and hide
You don't know that everyday I'm bleeding
As I'm feeling so bad inside
You don't know I'm dying
As I tell you I'm fine with a big smile

24 YEARS OF SUFFERING

24 years of suffering
Seems like it's neverending
No more breathing
As I'm bleeding
Myself I am murdering
And I've kept hiding
As I'm dying