U FEEL LIKE U DONT HAVE THE WILL TO FIGHT ANYMORE

sometimes u just feel like everything u had and liked...
well there's nothing anymore
after a while
it's like all those bad things are always happening to you
but you don’t feel them anymore
it's different
they hurt you but you know
that there's nothing u can do
it’s so easy to fake smiles
and at the same time it's so hard
it's like u see everything happening to your shadow or something
and you're there watching
and there's nothing u can do
but you feel this overwhelming pain
you keep it to yourself
deep inside
showing it to nobody
and then it's too hard
you have to let it out someway
the pain u try to erase
u want everything to end
and you feel like u don't even have the will to fight anymore
you just give up on yourself
knowing that no matter how hard you try you can't change
those people who tried to help you just gave up
so you dont know what to do anymore
what have I done to deserve those things ?
why do I have to feel this way ?
why can't someone do something ?
when & how will everything finally get better ?