IN YOUR HEAD

In your head and body
You can't find some peace
Everything hurts so much
Nobody knows as you hide
And you fight to keep it a secret
By doing harm to yourself
You try to feel relieved from some pain
Everyday doing the same thing again

WHY CAN'T I JUST...

Why can't I just see
What's in front of me ?

Why can't I just be happy
Like everybody ?

Why can't I not be so stressed
And able to relax and rest ?

Why can't I just cry
Instead of doing myself harm ?

THAT LOOK IN YOUR EYES

When your friend passed away
When sadness was filling your face
You had that look in your eyes

When you made your first mistake
When all your world fell apart
You had that look in your eyes

When you lost your first lover
When you missed being someone's precious thing
You had that look in your eyes

When you started hating food
When you sometimes made yourself sick and felt some kind of power
You had that look in your eyes

When nothing made sense anymore
When you lost all hope
You had that look in your eyes

When you tried to leave this world those several times
When you unfortunately woke up a few hours later
You had that look in your eyes

When you took it to your skin for the first time
When you thought it was the solution to feel less bad before it becomes a bad addiction
You had that look in your eyes

EVERYTIME I LOOK INTO MYSELF

Everytime I look into myself
I see the emptyness in me
Nothing someone would like to see
Nothing someone could understand

Everytime I look into myself
I see everything I lost
Broken promisses
Dreams that will never come true

Everytime I look into myself
I see the love I don't receive
The arms I don't have around me
The kisses I don't feel on my lips

Everytime I look into myself
I don't know what I'm looking for
There's nothing I could find
Because everything's dead inside