NOW DO I SEEM SO HAPPY

Open up your eyes
But don't you see the scars
10, 1000, 100000...
Too much to count
Always new ones
But you will never know never see
What is really me
Those everyday I hide
As I can't see the light
And I'm drowning deeper
Everyday in my own blood
Creating my own grave
Yet trying to please you all
Be what you want me to be
Say what you want me to say
What you want to hear
You live knowing a lie
Because I am nothing real
Everything I say is made up
So you think I'm happy
And smiling I go away
Lock myself up in my private place
Where it's just me and the blade
Then I will tell you with a big smile
How a great day it is
As I'm hoping that the pain in my head will die
Before the next time...
Open up your eyes
Yes it's me I hide

UGLY EMPTY BODY

My skin is ugly
And me I'm empty
Everyday so angry
I love you you hate me
I hate my mind and body
Nothing good about me
Bleeding because you make me
People I love always leave me
The only one to blame is me