COURAGE

It takes more courage
To put down that knife
Than use it
I wish I was strong
But I'm weak
I swear sometimes I try to fight
But it's so hard it hurts so much
Much more than you could ever imagine
Too hard I can't do it
It's part of me I need it
I wish you could teach me another way
Show me how
Save me

ANOTHER RED TEAR

Why did that red tear escape my body
To join her 1 000 000... other friends
What happened this time ?
What if I can't tell why ?
Am I bad for being who I am ?
Or am I bad for hiding the real me to everyone
Or bad for failing when trying to change, get better
So many questions left unanswered in my silly head
I will never find the answers
Those red tears fall everyday
It is who I am, what I've become
And it's almost been a decade now
And sadly I know it will never stop
I have tried but am not strong enough
It is too hard it hurts too much
I'm a worthless mess
A lost cause
So don't waste your time on me
Even though deep inside I wish you could save me
But hush tell nobody

NOTHING TO SAVE

Nobody cares what I want
Or even feel or think
I'm invisible anyway
I'm nothing at all
You can't save me
Because there is nothing to save
I'm dead already
And think I have always been

DYING IN THIS HELL

Dying in this hell
Wishing you could help
Wondering what you'd do
If only I could tell you