YOU ARE MY SUICIDE

As I have you in my hand
I know that away all suffering you can take
That decision is mine to make
I'm pissed at you for everytime you failed
Years ago my life you should have taken
Because of your failures I'm still here
In silence suffering in this unwanted life
This body that I hate
Now in my hand you smile to me
You never judge me
5 years ago for the first time we met
My skin you discovered for the first time
As I used you to try to ease some pain, anger and pressure
I never thought we'd become that close
You're my addiction
I need you everyday
Sadly without you I can't live
Everyday you kill me a bit more
You're always close to me
Now that you destroyed everything
Mind and body
I have nothing left
Soon all my suffering you will end
That time you better succeed
You are my suicide !