Saturday, November 12, 2005

IN MY HAND

Holding it in my hand
Calm in the outside
Screaming in the inside
Everyday alone
The pain I silently take

ALL THE FEELINGS

All the feelings
Building up inside
It’s hurting me
So much you couldn’t see

Its beauty reflects
On my humid eyes
A silent tear
Rolls down my cheeks
Wondering what I’m about to do

Slowly I roll up my sleeve
I look at it
It’s shining in my hand
I take another look at it
As it approaches my skin
Somehow smiling
Thinking about that imminent release

Then I close my eyes
Without even taking a deep breath
I feel it entering my skin
Within a few seconds
I feel like different
Like I’m on a high

It starts to burn
It hurts
But it’s good
This pain I need it
Not to focus on the rest
I feel calm, better and relieved
Only for a short moment

YOU ARE WHAT I'M NOT

Happiness for you
Sadness for me

Smiles for you
Fake ones for me

Self-esteem for you
Emptiness for me

Positive thoughts for you
Negative ones for me

Love for you
Hate for me

Intelligence for you
Stupidity for me

Talking for you
Silences for me

Peace for you
Anger for me

Good for you
Bad for me

Reality for you
Own world for me

Construction for you
Destruction for me

Life for you
Death for me

Words for you
Blade for me

Tears for you
Blood for me