THE PAIN REMAINS

You watch the flow
As your blood goes
You sit, lost in thoughts
As your mind can finally relax
Then you feel bad for doing it again
You're ashamed and just want to do it once again
To punish yourself for being so weak
Whatever you do the pain remains

ANOTHER DAY

Today I wish I could be stronger
But I'm dying to feel better
To bury that hate and anger
For that I have to feel pain
I am trying to fight everyday
But everyday I fail
I am weak
All I can do is bleed
Yes I hate it
But at the same time love it
Whether I hate or love it
All I know is I need it

HAPPINESS FOR YOU, NOT ME

Happiness isn't for me
I will never be happy
Happiness is for others
That's all that matters

Happiness gives you wings
Fills your heart, mind and soul
Happiness
Is never without regrets

Happiness makes you smile
Like everything's alright
It's like you can fly
You know you're alive

Happiness I don't deserve
Happiness I will never get
Happiness is for you
Me that's something I'll never find