FRIENDS LIE, THEY DONT CARE !

Friends lie
They pretend to care
But they don't
Last time you asked me how I was doing
Stupid as I am without thinking I told you the truth
And you didn't even care
And just said you had to go
Thanks for hurting me
I know I mean nothing to you at all
I hate you all
I thought we were close but I was wrong
Some always say they want to meet me
But it's nothing but lies
When they're trying to be nice
Others want to enter my world to get to know the real me
Again it's a big mistake when I try to let them enter
I thought I had some real friends
But now I wonder what that word friends means
And now I'm the stupid one with those tears in my eyes
Because you all hurt me so bad
But I never tell you
And why would you care anyway
Like the others you make me bleed
But that you'll never know
I thought I had some real friends
But the truth is I'm all alone
From now on I'll never tell you the truth about how I feel
So don't expect me to be honest with you ever again !

PLEASE TAKE THAT BLADE

Please take that blade
Before once again I reach my veins
Tell me it can all be alright
If only you were here by my side !

CRYING IN THE RAIN

As it rains
I look out the window
And see this girl crying
As her eyes are focused on the ground
Nobody sees that she cries
Because of the rain
But then how come I can see ?
I wonder as she's coming closer
She's coming my way
With her eyes still on the ground
Then I don't see her anymore
As I feel a warm drop fall down my cheeks
Then I look up and realize
I'm walking in the train
The girl I had seen had been me all along

SHE COULDN'T LET HIM KNOW THE TRUTH

What's wrong today he asked
Nothing she answered
Before he saw a tear fall from her eye
He nicely wiped it away as once again he asked
What's wrong today ? please tell me
She didn't dare look in his eyes
As once again she lied
Saying everything was alright
She was fine
Then why do you cry he asked
She didn't know what to answer
But she knew she had to lie
Because she just couldn't let him know the truth

THE BODY IS LIKE A TOOL

The body is like a tool
Something sadly you sometimes have to ruin
Until someone shows your another way
To not scare yourself everyday

FOOD IS GROSS

Too much food on my plate tonight
They think they can force me
Well, the truth is I have no choice
But they can't force me to keep the food inside
It feels so good to throw up
Get rid of all that gross food
I force myself as I make myself throw up
And I know it's bad
But damn it's my right to do that
I'd rather not eat though
As I hate food
But with them around I got no choice
So then I get rid of all that food
As I'm throwing up
And free myself from that gross food
And I just wish
I wasn't as fat as the mirror shows me !
And don't say it's in my fucking head
I know what I see
You just don't see what I see