MY FATE, MY PUNISHMENT

All the answers I could never find
All the words you never heard
All the silences you’ve always ignored
All the fake smiles you didn’t understand
All the lies you couldn’t notice
All the pain I’ve always felt inside
All the things I’ve always been keeping to myself
All the time the blade has been the only solution
All the time I’ve had to turn to it to try to ease
All the blood I’ve always lost
All the scars I couldn’t look at
All of this was my fault
My fate, my punishment

DEAD ALREADY

Too much blood has been wasted
Running out of my veins
Out of the thousand wounds on this ugly body that’s mine
The blade totally destroyed it
And keeps destroying it everyday
That’s fine I deserved it

Fed up wasting my time
Fighting for something I’ll never have
Trying to get better
It doesn’t matter
Nobody cares
It’s like I’m dead already !

I WONDER IF MY FEELINGS ARE REAL

I look around
But see nothing
Starring at the ground
Nothing I could feel

Tear drop in the ocean
Lost in this maze called life
Alone I walk blind
Looking for something I’ll never find

My words don’t make any sense
It doesn’t matter as nobody ever listens
Lost in an unknown place
All alone I live my own way

Waiting for the day I’ll wake up from this nightmare
To see this thing called life
But I know it’ll never happen
It’s like I’m dead already

THE LIE

Sunny day
Birds flying in the sky
Happy thoughts filling my head
Smile on my face

Talking to people
Making new friends everyday
Being happy to get up in the morning
Wishing the day would never end

Hanging out with tons of friends
Having fun
Laughing together
Having a good time

A perfect woman
Happy to live this perfect life
Without any issues or failures
Wishing it would never end !

TEARS OF BLOOD

I can feel them
Filling my eyes
But one thing I know
They won’t roll down my cheeks
Tears won’t flood
As I never cry
It’s only blood