IF THAT DAY I KNEW WHAT I KNOW TODAY !

If 6 years ago I knew what I know today
I wouldn't have done that
I wouldn't have been that stupid
To think it was the way
The solution
To feel less bad
To ease the pain
That day I will always regret
That day caused my end, my death
That day is now everyday
There's nothing to do
Nobody to talk to
Nobody to listen
Nobody to talk to me
Just me and it
A growing nightmare
Torture everyday
I'm not worthy
I'll never make it
Nothing but waiting for the ultimate release