ANOTHER RED TEAR

Why did that red tear escape my body
To join her 1 000 000... other friends
What happened this time ?
What if I can't tell why ?
Am I bad for being who I am ?
Or am I bad for hiding the real me to everyone
Or bad for failing when trying to change, get better
So many questions left unanswered in my silly head
I will never find the answers
Those red tears fall everyday
It is who I am, what I've become
And it's almost been a decade now
And sadly I know it will never stop
I have tried but am not strong enough
It is too hard it hurts too much
I'm a worthless mess
A lost cause
So don't waste your time on me
Even though deep inside I wish you could save me
But hush tell nobody