HAVE YOU EVER...

Have you ever felt like nobody cares about you ?
Have you ever tried to be someone else ?
Have you ever felt misunderstood, like nobody can understand you ?
Have you ever tried to ease the pain in painful ways
Have you ever wanted to die or have you ever tried ?
Have you ever felt that the world would be better without you ?
Have you ever felt like you don’t belong to this ‘beautiful’ world, like you don’t have your place in it ?
Have you ever felt like you’re a big mistake of nature ?
Have you ever felt ignored by the others ?
Have you ever felt like you have to hurt yourself to feel less bad or just to ‘feel’ ?
Have you ever felt betrayed ?
Have you ever felt that smiling becomes harder everyday?
Have you ever felt different, abnormal ?
Have you ever had the feeling that your life has no sense ?
Have you ever felt like you’re living your life for the second time ?
Have you ever felt sick and tired of everything ?
Have you ever taken a blade in your hand, pressing on your wrist, wishing you had the courage to do it again, to end it all ?
Have you ever been told that you were dangerous to yourself ?
Have you ever loved someone to death ?
Have you ever known the real happiness and lost it ?
Have you ever asked yourself why you’re living your life when you hate it so much ?
Have you ever wondered what’s good in being you ?
Have you ever tried to count how many friends you have to realize you could count them on one hand ?
Have you ever wondered if one of them really knows the ‘real you’ ?
Have you ever wondered how may of these friends really care about you ?
Have you ever thought about why you hide yourself ?
Have you ever told yourself that you weren’t worthy ?
Have you ever cried for no reason ?
Have you ever wished you could close your eyes and disappear forever ?
Have you ever wished your life could end to be relieved forever ?
Have you ever noticed how people seem to care about the nice things about you and never the bad ones, like if they didn’t even want to see the real you ?
Have you ever faked a smile ?
Have you ever lied to your best friends and felt bad about it ?
Have you ever been mad at them for not noticing you were in pain or not seeing the truth when you’re lying, searching for it and show you that they know you’re lying and they want the truth ?
Have you ever given yourself away completely for someone you will never get back ?
Have you ever thought that you didn’t deserve to be alive, feel loved, feel happy ?
Have you ever thought that you were boring people ?
Have you ever thought about why you’re sitting alone at lunch time at school ?
Have you ever had the feeling that everything you do is wrong ?
Have you ever wondered why you give up on things all the time ?
Have you ever felt disgusted about yourself ?
Have you ever wondered why you hate yourself that much ?
Have you ever wondered who would cry at your funerals ?
Have you ever noticed how easier it was to hide your feelings than showing them, to lie than telling the truth, to take the easy way out than trying to face your ‘problems’ ?
Have you ever thought about why you’re starving or purging ?
Have you ever thought about why you have to take the anger out of yourself ?
Have you ever felt invisible ?
Have you ever felt useless ?
Have you ever looked in the mirror and felt disgusted ?
Have you ever felt ugly, fat, disgusting, alone, scared, misunderstood, rejected, broken, lost, stupid, crazy, sick & tired of everything, unwanted, not worthy… ?
Have you ever taken pills, done drugs, hurt yourself intentionally, tried to kill yourself or anything else just to feel or as some kind of punishment for being a bad person because you think you deserve it or that it’s the only way you exist or feel ?
And finally have you ever wished that a friend would save you, your life and the nothing you’ve become but you’re too ashamed or scared to ask ?

Think about that !