SO SICK OF LIVING LIKE THIS

So hurt, about to explode
Heading for her purse
To find her needed knife
Seeking relief
Deep inside she wants to scream
Alone in the bathroom she shuts her eyes
Ready to find relief with the blade
Soon the blood follows
Nobody could understand the way she feels
Herself she couldn’t explain
She feels a bit better as she feels that well known pain
But also so ashamed for what she’s done once again
She’s in another world for a short moment
Feeling nothing but that new pain she herself caused
Her head seems empty for a while
She feels better and yet so bad
Hating herself even more for doing that
Wishing there was someone to take her out of it
Someone to care and love her
And show her another way