WHY CANT SHE DIE ?

I wish she was dead
But like always
My prayers won't be answered
So I have to listen to that crap everyday
Let her control me
My thoughts, my 'life'
Everything
People would think I exagerate
You're so far from the truth
She's destroyed me so much psychologically
For so many years
That I wonder if in the end
There'll be anything left of me